Crushed

     At some point in every one's life, you experience having a crush. That stomach flip whenever they speak to you or walk by is sometimes all you need to make your day better. Crushes are fine, but are you ever too old for them? Do crushes have age limits?

     I am coming clean. I have a crush... at 29 years old. This crush isn't like any I've ever experienced. I can't shake this one. Usually, a crush only lasts about a month for me. This one has lasted about a year and a half. We are definitely opposite. He's a lot more reserved than me. Then again, who isn't? If you look up extrovert in the dictionary, my picture is by it. I know he's attracted to me, but I can't help but wonder what he's waiting for. Don't misunderstand me, my life isn't on pause. I meet people and I go out on dates. I've even had boyfriends, but it's something about him that I can't give up on.

This is how I am trying to avoid feeling.

     When I like a guy or see one taking too long to approach me, I approach them. Fortune favors the bold and shyness doesn't become me. This guy is different. He brings out my shyness. We have conversations every time we see each other. I appear normal on the surface, but internally I am volcanic. Scientists say that when a person sees another person that they like, their pupils enlarge. If this is true, my pupils must become the size of saucers. I strongly wonder if I am too old to feel like this. I'm not a teenager anymore. At some point I will have to either abandon this feeling or confront it head on.

     Crushes are fun, exciting and sometimes frustrating. It's a new year and I refuse to over think this. Who knows? I may actually tell him. You can't have a batting average without first stepping up to the plate.